To my dear friend--Colleen---
on the eve of my 20th wedding anniversary-----as my heart breaks daily-- missing my husband, longing for his love and acceptance---I continue to bend over backwards for my job and staff and sons----I keep my spirits as high as I can..... I count my blessings every single minute--I do my best to keep the pain at bay--- for me "this too shall pass" does not seem real---just a saying for others to hold true too-

-for me, the strength comes from knowing my passion is good and just and right and healthy--when you do your passion the rest of the world can come or go, stand still or fly by, hate you, scorn you, laugh at you, and yes even reject you--and still I can find solace in doing what I love---whether I weigh 200 pounds or not--whether I cook dinner every night or not---whether my oven works or not--whether I clean my own house or pay someone else to do it for me--no one and nothing can take my passion and mission away---no one and nothing can take my accomplishments, my friends, my journeys, my fun times, my memories away either--no matter HOW MUCH PAIN COMES TO ME IN ANY ONE DIRECTION--NO MATTER HOW HEART BROKEN I MAY BE--OVER AND OVER AGAIN--NO ONE AND NOTHING CAN SQUELCH MY PASSION--MY INNER SOUL--NOTHING AND NOT EVEN MY HUSBAND... Happy 20th wedding anniversay to me